I recently celebrated my 23rd birthday and let me tell you, it doesn’t get easier as each year comes and goes! I know, you’re probably saying ’23 is so young! What are you complaining for?!?!’. I will agree with you there, 23 is young. Not as young as 21 mind you, but it’s young enough. But let me tell you, there’s nothing like pushing that life-acceleration pedal quite like having a child. And I’ve got one. The days, weeks, months; they just fly by. One day she’s rolling over and in a flash she’s trying to walk, meaning her life AND mine are literally flashing before my eyes. It’s terrifying!
I’m constantly getting older. Tomorrow will never be here again. But I realised I wasn’t taking advantage of it! I wasn’t living my life like everyday were my last. I have things I want to do, see, experience. So why was I sitting around on facebook all day waiting for Little E to wake up from her nap just so I can count down to the time when she needs to go down again?
It’s ironic that while perusing facebook, I came across a quote that prompted me to start doing something. I had been wanting to do something all along, I was just too scared to be judged and fail. But what good is life if you go through it fearing what everyone else is going to say??! It’s not good! You fail by being afraid.
So right there and then, I shared my blog with my facebook friends (something I had hidden for a year, even from my family). The people I thought were better than me. Braver than me. More talented. Prettier. Better spoken. I shared a part of myself with them. And it felt GREAT! By sharing what I had been working on, I was doing what they had been doing all along that had made me fear them.
The floodgates are open now. I’m organising more projects and even trying to inspire D to do the same. It feels good and I already feel better about myself. Yesterday is gone. I will always be getting older. Tomorrow will never come. No more putting off until the ‘right time’. The time is now.